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A friendship that breaks boundaries
But doesn’t break
I hopefully look forward
As the sun rises on this
Long nights significantly shorter
With your presence, I don’t mind
Because your mind keeps me up thinking
Attitudes I held so dear
With your tongue you pull apart
The jewels that you see through
Like true Gems nothing is perfect
We are equally yoked
But sometimes you get salty
And I can be a bit to spicy
You see,
I love that you’re enlightened
Yet I don’t agree with everything you see
As it stands you don’t know what could be
For there is comfort in not knowing
Let’s not ruin it with bed sheets
That quickly turn to bad shit
Lets wait
I’ll wait
While you wait on me
With encouraging words
Funny ways
Making me laugh when I needed it most
You didn’t even know
Not like the others
I reckon you’re hard to get
And because of my experiences
Im hard to get
You don’t play on my weakness
Nor Feed into insecurities
You ignore every bad word
Reminding me that what is spoken comes to life
We work on words
Whilst enjoying life
Building this energy
You felt my energy
Like a Lion
Like a man you physically stand
Feet firm and rooted
Your mane absorbing the Suns ray
I imagine this
Me protected by your shade
When the sun rises
There’s no hiding from the heat.
I slept with a cockroach
Hold me
Your arms embrace
And smell of strentgh
Between your pits
Send kisses to my lips
You pull in now
And I feel safe now
You step back lift my head
Looking into the windows of my soul
Love lives here
Tending to eternal rivers,
that flow and run
Watering feeding growing cleaning renewing unconditional source of love
She sees you looking
Loves heart skips
Not always smart
But Love is brave
She moves in peering
Welcoming your intrusion
In the hurry to go back
she tripped and fell
Vulnerable and bruised
She never did say what she saw
What made her run?
What made her fall?
River over flowing
Still wanting to share some with you
Yeah love is like that
Not today love
Not now
I close my eyes to hold back the flood
Feeling Naked beyond my skin
Hold me
Your embrace provides me shelter
A tall frame and a head as a roof
Protect me from this rain
It’s coming
I feel it in my knees
Hold me
Where love couldn’t go
Take me
Take me
Maybe be your love will let us in
Maybe love could help you find your oasis
Help you build your oasis
Maybe your love could hold love
Like you hold me
Maybe?
Until then
Hold me
These Damn feelings
I won’t forget this
Always here, with me
This feeling
Does it have to be
Always about feelings
That’s all I know
Things that are so real
But never there, cease to exist
But so real when they hit
Makes no sense
I know
Here I go again
Talking about these damn feelings
Like I wouldn’t live if I didn’t feel
Breathe
help me from these feelings
Save me from these thoughts
When life gets you down
You have to acknowledge it
Face it
Don’t run from it
And let it go
That’s what they say
Be passionate
But not attached
Those same feelings will ruin you
Without this I can’t smile
Every time you ask what’s up
Would tell you everything’s cool
Laugh at the expensive of life
This keeps me
Keeps the way no one else can
The way you can’t
So let me be free
This voice is not heard, but heard
Eventually
Let me be, let me feel
Wait
Let me be
Let me get over this
Giants were babies once
There is nothing perfect about this but everything
Embrace it hold it dear
Every quirk
And love it dear
Yourself can’t be replaced
Misplaced only to be found
Amongst random words and thoughts
What you speak came from mind to be
So be truth , be light, be bright, be peace kindness and all things great
Baby steps now?
Even Giants were babies once
Enjoy every stride
Because mind over matter
Soft Tongue over sword
Be love be you be perfect
Your perfect
Full stop
Note from the author
I posted this again with some changes.
I just want anyone reading this (thank you) that there will be times where you feel, inferior and incapable but you’ve got to believe in yourself especially when others don’t. When you’ve been hurt and your not even sure why and you start to doubt and feel negative towards yourself know this you are beautiful and you don’t need nobody to tell you that, if anybody does tell them you know this already. Happiness lies within you , you’ve probably heard it before but listen because it’s true. And no it’s not easy in the worst times, aknowledge it, cry, scream , shout and move on. Baby steps baby because even Giants were babies once.
Fizzy x
Giants were babies once
There is nothing perfect about this but everything
Embrace it hold it dear
Every quirk
And love it dear
Yourself can’t be replaced
Misplaced only to be found
Amongst random words and thoughts
What you speak came from mind to be
So be truth be light, be bright, be peace, kindness and all things great
Baby steps now?
Even Giants were babies once
Enjoy every stride
Because mind over matter
Soft Tongue over sword
Be love be you be perfect.
Your perfect
I Have Been Silenced
Ive been silenced
No longer allowed to say what I feel
The things I long to say
feelings get in the way
And that’s bad
Insert eye roll here
just so that I don’t pierce you with these words slice you with my tongue
jab, left hook, right hook
with my thoughts
Knock your lights out
And just like that you might catch a feeling
Not one that you expected
Not one that I wanted
But guilty is your conscious
Guilty im feeling
For making you guilty
For something I entered to so freely
Silence
So much to hear in that space
And so much can be felt in this place
You prefer silence
For fear, too much will be said at once
With not one right word to say
And the truth doesn’t matter
If it’s not right its silence
One can suffer in silence
Die in silence
Most hearts break in silence
The truth is light of appreciation and welcomed with triumph even in the darkest hour
And you may not understand this yet
Hearts break in silence
Words can heal and words can destroy
(Yeah you know)
Silence the silent killer that creeps thickening the air
suffocated till last breath
No evidence on sight
Just silence
I slept with a cockroach
I slept like a baby till 3am
Awake I laid wondering
What’s that noise?
The heat was not an issue till this point
Even at this point bearable
I couldn’t get rid of this feeling
Something wasn’t right
This bed doesn’t feel like it used to
New sheets and doesn’t feel like it’s supposed to
I won’t give up on this bed yet
It’s ok to say am lazy at 3am
Water bottle to far to reach
Swallow spit and roll over
These dreams I fabricate for real ones to materialise
One sheep two sheep pink sheep three
Crack of dawn, I let out a yawn
Something still ain’t right
But I made it right?
30 degrees no fan and I made it.
Feet down
Slippers on
Robe on
Same routine every day since I got here
Sip some water
Lift my sheets
Cockroach
Lift my sheets
A big fat cockroach
Well I’ll be damed
I spent the night with a cockroach
Staring at this creature
Yet, so little
I wouldn’t be wrong if I was attached to this critter
But what the hell I slept with a cockroach
How would I tell my friends
I won’t tell my friends
How intrusive and unforgivably selfishly you disturbed my night.
I tried to kill you with all the knowledge in my room
The Gods are not to blame
Mindfulness
borderline personality disorder
Things fall apart
You were strong and I just kept missing
Just like that he scurried out of sight
Im sure it’s a he because he acted like a bitch
Enjoyed the warmth and safety I had to offer
With nothing to give
But violation and disappointment
I never did see him again
If I ever learnt anything in life
“Always check your sheets before you sleep”
You can not guarantee what will come in, but you can guarantee what you let in.
X Fizzy X
Step in the dark GE2015
Positivity breeds light
And when it’s dark
The tiniest light conquers the dark
It’s hard when it’s blue
So conservatively they will try
To hold you down
But no matter the colour
You will shine
We will shine
The race for the cheque
May make you think twice about your race
When you’re sick there may be no pill
In reach
This fate is ill
We are the cure
Social injustice a disease
Cured by the book
The same book that’s so hard to reach
9 grand –iose men or more
Couldn’t hold you back
Don’t hesitate to step
Just because it’s dark
Doesn’t mean your blind
All things Fizzy 